What Do I Want?

In order to know exactly what it is that I want, I only need to look within and tap into my soul. No need to search elsewhere. 

During my Soul Awakening coaching session with Amanda Ingram-Cotton on June 15, 2021, she pulled me 3 cards from Rebecca Campbell's Work Your Light Oracle deck to shed some light on my journey. 

The first one is the 'Context' card. And I got Inner Temple.

This is the description that I got from Rebecca's website (https://rebeccacampbell.me/inner-temple/):

"Inner Temple" 

Devotion. Tune in to the portal of your heart. 

We each have within us an Inner Temple. A place where our soul’s whispers and intuitive senses can be felt, heard and known. Where we can drink from the sweet waters of our soul. A resting place. A place where we can feel at home. A place where we discover that we are indeed the oracle that we have been searching for.

You are being called to be a devoted student and tune in to your heart. To incorporate true devotion into your life. You could be being called to develop a regular meditation, journaling or chanting practice. Or to show up to your soul with rhythm. To develop a daily practice where you fill up your well and spend time with your soul.

All of the answers to all of the questions that you seek are waiting for you in the portal of your heart. But you cannot hear them unless you carve out time each day to listen. Your soul is yearning for a deeper relationship with you, and so the more time you spend with it and show up to it, the more clearly it will guide you.

We are here to grow as souls. Earth is one big playground for our soul to learn. And you are being called now to go deeper in your soul growth or to increase your devotion by being a student of a lineage or a spiritual teacher.

If you have already been a committed student, then you are being commended for your devotion. Your guides want you to know how proud of you they are and that the time you spend in devotion is priceless.

If you are questioning your career or life path, your guides want you to turn your focus to devotion and this prayer: ‘Please use me in a way that delights my mind, body and soul.  May my life be one big moving prayer.’

Work Your Light Action: Commit to a daily devotional practice.

I realize that no one can tell me what it is that I actually want and what my superpower is. I wish all the psychics I go to could tell me that. But unfortunately, it's my responsibility to find that out for myself, through self-discovery and healing. I have to connect to my Higher Self.

Of course, meditation is one very good way to connect to your Higher Self. It's one of the traditional ways. But at the end of the day, you have to do what works for you and for your situations and circumstances. As a full-time mom of a 2-year-old toddler, it's not easy to find time to do even a 10-minute meditation. 

I have tried to do it when my son is asleep, but I'm always so exhausted that I fall asleep every time. 

Amanda suggests that I could also tap into my soul by doing things that I enjoy -- things that light me up. I could increase my awareness and expand my consciousness even when I play with my son, do the dishes, or listen to my favorite music. I love walking in nature, but being where I am right now (inside Wing 7 Air Force Base in Suratthani, Thailand) and especially during Covid time, I'm mostly inside. My dream is to one day live close to nature with lots of trees around and perhaps a nice lake also. 

The Inner Temple card asks that I commit to a daily devotional practice and I'm so grateful that I'm starting this blog now (finally!) because I believe that it's my way of connecting with my soul and my Higher Self. This is like journaling whereby I fill up my well and spend time with my soul.

This is how I will hear that guidance that I have always searching for.